ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

Dear students,

What is so equally hard and interesting as it pumps our adrenaline hard is the nature of exam which forces us to keep guessing. Then at times the uhhs and ahhs will follow thereafter i mean after or while the exam. As a teacher whose knowledge of both pedagogical and subject per se is far from being at par with those the old timers of dons, a pang of guilty is of course unavoidable as i know what i lack despite i keep telling myself to rather focus on self-claimed strengths. But , the whisper invariably is too hard that is overheard by others though they care not at all. Thus, this so called uninvited feelings will result in a paradox which hardly abates.

If i have to recall for what i have done this year. I did very little considering the amenities that the school offer in helping out students from the abyss of ignorance. If  i were to compare with some teachers whose hometown are as far as up to 90 kilometres from school, my service might not be that bad. It is disservice to make a comparison as we know what our students need to know at certain rungs. I as far as i am concerned have paid too much concern on preparing them to sit for the exam that i overlook the core business of my teaching   which is to educate and train them to experience a gradual  improvement.

Unlike previous years, this year i have the same batch of students since form 1. i know each and everyone of them. Most of them are the same since form 1. If their English is still bad though it harsh to make such a blanket statement, i think the onus is on me as i did not really teach them English. If i have truly taught them, things will go the other way round. And the blame is on me and this feeling is like an urge to keep me going moments i was about to vent anger of students' indifference towards learning.

The day after tomorrow, there will be English paper. I have done my parts though never enough. At least some students have felt nauseated for having to attend classes at almost all times. They sadly could not find ample time for themselves to relax their mind and refresh their energies. I do pray they will be confident enough to give their all. It is perfection that matters, it is when you have put heart into something that really matters.

E is to me the language genius while S follows suit, only the latter is a bit careless to be at par with the former in writing.

Sir